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Spied a fly on plain sight struggled with its might to escape the gloomy inside not giving up without a fight --- "Why?" it cried by the slide dry on the inside damp and chilly but bright on a rainy day right outside

It was surprising to know that three years, albeit it appeared long, had just whizzed past me, and here I am now, days after finishing my final finals paper and had just got myself in a stimulant-induced drugged state in a supposedly last gathering with course mates also just days ago. Just eight months ago, I have probably presented myself in writing as if I am a prisoner trapped on top of an ivory tower, in which my daily tasks involve engaging with concepts and more concepts, while shunning away whatever is outside the tower and dealing with horribly annoying creatures and events from the inside and outside of the tower (p.s.: That does not mean that those creatures and events ceased to exist upon the end of the course, it just became qualitatively different). For now, to realise that this very undergraduate course for three short (considering that as one ages, time appears to move relatively faster) years have somewhat ended (pending results notifications and convocation) was, ...

I can't believe this would've been my first blog post of the year ... and the last published one was on March 2016 ... Ever since the last post was published, the college workload started to pile up, and (probably) had plateaued this semester (so far). Game time became less. Tendency for procrastination increased as a result of the desire of escapism, most probably due to the tiredness - physically, mentally and spiritually. Even my gut got a little more volume, especially visible for this semester. Deep down, it seemed like the desire to escape did not (or would not) go away that easily. Running away from a lot of school work, being under the roof with so many people, the trappings of the dominant social norms. I don't know, whether it is more worthy to engage in benign masochism with people or while living alone. Unlike previous posts, I do not have much to say this time around. I'm just hoping that I can get a good break from this recent horrible semester (in m...

If you were to ask me a few years back on how to solve the Israeli-Palestinian conflict and some other seemingly hard conflicts around the world, I might've said that just do the full inquiry on the rights and wrongs of both sides, and then attempt to resolve the issue using the analyses made for both sides by somehow give the disadvantaged side some 'justice', e.g. give land back to them etc.. Or they could just conduct peace talks with a non-affiliated person as the mediator. Ask me this years later (for instance, now?), then I'll probably just try to enable people of both sides to live good, regardless of whatever wrongs or rights that have been done by both sides upon the other side. Why, you might ask, should they not pursue justice from either of the sides? Well, I don't know if being right or being wrong is important any more. It's not like science, in which we attempt to explain natural phenomena with the best tested and supported explanation we ca...

Have not been scribbling here for a good while. I imagine myself lying on a clear land with soft grass padding in the middle of the night, with stars or satellites of all shapes and sizes appearing in front of my visual field, without disruption by blood-sucking animals, supernatural beings, clouds, and some other humans whom decide to ruin the view with good lighting. The last time I had an almost similar experience of that was in the midst of a road trip with my family. Lying at the back of the car, looking up into the darkness of the sky, I see stars brightening up the dark skies. That sense of awe and relaxedness filled my mind even as the car is driving through the expressway at a considerably high speed. With the island already bright at urban and suburban areas, it'll be impossible of me to have that kind of view easily except probably during a mass power trip on the island. No, I'm not hoping for the power trip, because disruptions in people's lives could occu...