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A Messy Cross

Here I am, once again, at the same cross with multiple paths 'to the unknown' (as said by Keith Barry, if you know him from TV).

It's August now, and the trial is edging closer to me and I'm not that prepared yet. Unexpected interruptions and distractions are coming to lurk me out of my mind (trying to stop it though). The trial had just became the biggest target, bigger than the true paper. It allows you to apply scholarships, financial aids, even overseas universities and so on ... and the thing is, I need to do the impossible result I've never achieved since I take my first exam in my secondary school: to get an average of more than 80 ... Sure it's though and would require me to kick some *** to accomplice the 'Mission Impossible'. I'm no Bolt or Phelps, so I need to work extra hard but effective to succeed.

Well, the unknown paths after SPM (specifically after the NS) are making me insecurely free falling to nowhere but nowhere ... It's just feels like I'm lost even if provided a map and I normally don't get lost so easily with it. I had collected brochures of all paths, went to fairs to ask the institute-person-in-charges, surfing the Internet for extra information. I thought I've done the data collection, I just need to analyse and make the decision, which is easier to be said than done ...

I knew that my decision would actually affect unknowns like when my parents are going to retire? Will the finance in my family get out of control just because the tuition fees during studying in tertiary education? Am I going to get a job with salaries enough to support me and help my parents to minimise their expenditure load after I graduate? ...

Wow, that's way to much of confession ...

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